Good to know.
That I have no idea what will happen to me in a few years. When my dad leaves us, & he will, wtf am I supposed to do? Who am I living with? My mom or dad? I will never ever call that bitch Tita or whatever. I’ll call her “cunt”, that is what she is anyways. I’ve tried to look her up on facebook, she blocked me. My dad blocked me off of his entire facebook. Yet, he calls me on what people post on my facebook. I swear he thinks I’m fucking stupid & that I don’t know what the hell is going on. Since I know everything, I might as well prepare myself. When he leaves, where should I move? How the fuck am I gonna go to school? I’m already past 18, he’s not paying child support. I wish I could talk to someone who has divorced parents. I obviously don’t know what to expect. But wouldn’t it be different for kids that have divorced parents since they were young compared to divorced parents at the age of 19? Too much on my mind..
While ALL of this happening, I’m just trying to do good in school. I’m trying to be happy. Not gonna lie. But I’m just putting up a front. Deep down inside, I’m fucking miserable about things. I spend most days at school, I study every chance I get. I don’t really have time to talk to people. I’m trying to get my dad out of my head. I don’t need that shit. I don’t have anyone to talk to cuz nobody understands what I’m going through. Friends try to help. But they just don’t understand. When I’m home, I just hate being there. Usually my mom is home with me, I just can’t bare to look at her. She knows nothing. She doesn’t know what’s going on. I wish I could tell her. But I can’t.
Blah.. I feel like I complain too much, while there’s other things to complain about. There are other important things. I’m thankful to have a house, food to eat, clothes to wear.. a car to get me places. Some people don’t have that..
